Over two weeks ago I retired from my job early. It had been an incredibly messy couple of weeks leading up to that.
I have not been able to work for many months now, and after I went on summer holidays I became ill and had to go to the emergency room. On my way back from the hospital I realised that there was no way that I would recover before school went back in, and that I would lose any progress I might have made this summer if I went back to work.
I only have a small amount of energy to do things, and the past few months that energy has dwindled to a very meagre amount. I have to be very careful and use what I have mindfully.
Two weeks later it was discovered that I needed to get surgery to remove my gallbladder and by that time I had decided that my health should be my only priority going forward, and that I had to chose between my job or my health.
So here I am not working, but I am still quite anxious, upset and really quite tired.
Like I said, incredibly messy.
Apart from the practical things (arranging pensions, surgery etc.,) there is the process of changing my life. I think this will be a long process (I am still fighting on a daily basis the urge to get ready for work), and it will be difficult.
I have already decided what my focus should be and that is to embrace life.
There are many ways for me to do that so I have created this blog as a means to record my experiences and to help catalog the various means that I will try.
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